chridstmas pictures

k well this is the Christmas card I made to send to everyone and I didn't do it!! I am officially LAZY soooo here it is!!

walmart!!!

ok so tonight is not really a funny story about walmart but just my experience at work tonight. I went into work at six pm and was scheduled to work until eleven pm. I was up working the service desk and about two hours into my shift my manager comes over to me with a panicked look on his face and says to the customer im helping "you need to leave, get your kids out of here"! Im thinking he's being rude and he tells me I need to leave too. I asked why and he replies "we are evacuating the building"! PANIC PANIC!! So the woman leaves (runs) to the door with all three of her kids in the basket and makes it safely outside. I get outside and ask what the problem is and im told its a minor gas leak! ok so its cool they evacuated everyone but the panic management put into EVERYONE was not cool. Anywho i got to come home almost three hours early and they closed the whole store for the night! YAY!!!

sick n tired

I must say I am sick and tired of feeling like crap! Everyday all day I feel sad and useless, tired and worn down. I lack motivation for anything important such as, playing with my kids, cleaning my house and even spending quality time with my husband. I thought I was unhappy in St George because I lived under someone else's roof but I'm finding out that its something else. I also thought it was because I needed to get out of the house and maybe work a few hours a week. That's not it either. I don't feel happy. Well I went to the Dr. here and told her what was going on and mentioned that I am still nursing Kathryn at night and I cant seam to lose weight. I am active everyday at work for about five to six hours straight and I eat pretty well too. I don't stuff myself or binge on food like I used to. Still though I cant seam to shake it off. She mentioned that my hormones could be affecting how I feel and that my estrogen is low since I have only had ONE period since Kathryn's birth almost 16 months ago! I do have an IUD but its the para guard copper one that has no extra hormones in it so most likely its the breast feeding at night that's doing it. She sent me to have my blood drawn and now will check everything. She said she will start me on Wellbutrin antidepressant once she gets my blood work back. OH YAY another freaking antidepressant. Well she said its different than the ones I have been on and it focuses on motivation and energy. She mentioned that most people lose weight on it too:) I feel like I'm in this endless cycle of being unhappy about my appearance and that makes me lazy because I lack the motivation for anything because I just don't see the point. I probably make no sense but it feels good to get it out. Oh and my camera is missing. Cant find it anywhere!! I have wanted to post pictures and even take a few the last few weeks but I cant find the stupid thing!!! GGGRRRRRRRRRR!

Kathryn says.....

Here are some things Kathryn is saying now.

• momma
• daddy
• ew!
• baba
• owie
• baby, but she says bebe
• no
• otoh

She also can throw a real mean fit when she's mad at you. She walks into the corner and screams and wont let anyone near her! She's so funny!!! Any who i sooo wish i could post pictures right about now.......waiting waiting waiting......

pictures

k so i have been trying and trying to upload pictures of the kids from Christmas but for some reason my camera is not wanting to cooperate with the computer! Kevin said he would fix it for me but who knows when that's gonna be. He is in school from seven to four during the week and when he gets home the last thing he wants to do is work. I'm sure ill get(make) him do it sooner or later. till then just use your imaginations k!

quick update

Just wanted to make a quick update! Lets see what are we doing??? Kevin is going to Wyotech starting next week and I must say I'm excited for him to start school for more than one reason! He has been watching the kids while i work nights at Walmart and he is soooooo good at it. I usually make dinner for the family before I leave and he feeds them, bathes them and puts them to bed. He plays with them and I know he really enjoys his kids. This makes me very happy.

Thomas is moving to Cortez Co. to live with his dad. This was mostly Thomas' decision. He feels like he doesn't belong with us. I can see why. I'm always yelling or getting on to him for something. Either its him being mean to the girls or smarting off to me. He says the girls get more attention than he does and I can see that. He gets more negative attention because he's older and because he makes bad decisions. I tried spending more time with him and praising him when he does something good but the bad outweigh the good on that one. Ill miss him very much and right now I'm very sad but i think he needs some time with his dad. He also has a new step mom and I hope things work out as far as him respecting her and knowing she is his mother as well. I like Nikki (new mom's name) she has been very good for Thomas' dad and is the reason he is doing so well now. I hope she can influence Thomas as well.

Kambree is doing great! We are trying to potty train her and so far so good. She runs around in panties or with nothing on all day long and will tell one of us if she need's to go. She likes to be alone when she poo's she says "mom get out now pwease". She is such a character. Kathryn is her best friend. I'm so glad they are so close in age because they play great together. Now Kambree will be mean and TRY to beat up on Kathryn but Kathryn can really hold her own when it comes to her sister being a bully. Things Kambree's into now are makeup, Disney princess, dresses and shoes. The other day I walked into her room and to my surprise there were clothes piled up in front of her closet. She had taken ALL the clothes out of her closet and off the hangers just to find her "pretty dress". She ended up putting on four dresses at the same time and could barley move! I so should have taken a picture of it!

Kathryn is now almost 15 months old and she is mommy's girl! I love that little rugrat! She follows Kambree everywhere she goes and gets into just as much trouble! She has learned to climb up on to the kitchen chairs and up on to the table just like Kambree! Our table is next to our only kitchen window and about a week ago they were both up there pushing on the glass and it cracked! I feel so lucky that they didn't get hurt. Well now we fold up our chairs and put them away when we are done using them. Yes our chairs fold up:) Any who Kathryn says a few words that we are able to understand like"owie" and "momma" she will repeat what we say sometimes if she is in the mood. She hates shoes and dresses. I think she's my tomboy! Kambree is the prissy one and Kathryn is the rough and tough one!

As for me I am working part time and I like it so far. I really need that break from the kids and Kevin. Me time i guess. I think i function better when I'm on a schedule and that kind of keeps my moods up. I have been off antidepressants for over a month and feel soooooo much better than i did in St George. I have my own place and my kids have their own rooms and oh yeah i forgot to mention MY OWN KITCHEN!! I can clean and organize my stuff and when i go looking for something its almost ALWAYS where i put it last!!!! AAAAHHHH!!! big sigh of relief!! So in a nutshell things are good and hope they will stay that way! Ill keep ya all updated as much as possible!! LOVE TO YOU ALL!! RAY

crap!!

i just spent about thirty min typing a nice little paragraph about how my family is doing and the second i went to post it Kathryn came up to my key board and Deleted it all!!!! im sooooooooooooo mad!!! grrrrrrr!! i guess i ll try again later! we are doing good though! ill post pictures soon!!