Pictures of our house...

Here are some pictures of our cute little house...we LOVE IT!

 Above is the front of our house...we have TONS of neighbors and the girls have lots of kids to play with...

 This is the living room and you can see the dining room too...we have vaulted ceilings and plant shelves...I have no idea what to put up there..something simple and cheap...I love how it makes the small living room look big...and open...

 Our Kitchen is small but absolutely wonderful! We have a gas stove and LOVE it!!

 This is the Dining room view from the kitchen...I dont have everything hung up yet...we are getting there though...

 View from the hallway into the living room.

 My room, it has a sliding glass door that goes to our back yard...and a full master bathroom, with a walk in closet...

 View of bathroom door and more plant shelves from my bed....

 View from our room down the hall to the girls room and bathroom to the left is where the washer and dryer live:)

 This is Daddy's office and hope it will be a room for Thomas someday...right next to it is Kambree and Kathryn's room..

 The girls room is right next to the guest bathroom, it is pretty messy thats why there are no more pictures...they like to color in the bathroom..thats why its full of paper and crayons...

 Our back yard ROCKS! Its a little small but its ours...we have no houses behind us and we love the view...

 This is the back of the house...the girls love to play in their pool...This year we planted tomato's and strawberries!

Finally!! This is our VIEW!! We had a turkey come see us this year on Easter Morning! We see TONS of deer and feed the chipmunks every day!

So far behind....

I am so far behind on posting its not even funny....

First off I wanted to share some pictures of the girls project they did this spring. Kambree got a butterfly kit from insectlore for her birthday this year. It came with the butterfly net to hold them in and a coupon to order your butterfly larvae anytime of the year...they came ALIVE in a little cup and yes they were mailed right to us...we got five total. The food they eat was piled at the bottom of the cup they live in..you never open the cup and play with them because it might disturb their eating and growing...after they have grown to a good size after about two weeks, they crawl to the top of the cup where they attach themselves to a thin piece of paper, hang upside down and change from caterpillar to chrysalis...once ALL of them have done this, you open the lid, take the paper off and pin it to the inside of the butterfly net...wait two weeks and waaalaaah! Butterfly's emerge from their chrysalis!! This was a very rewarding project for the girls and us too...we let them go and some of them crawled up and down our arms before lift off...If anyone ever wants a good science project to do as a family, I highly recommend this!

 

i failed

the anxiety and sadness was just too much for me to deal with....i feel like the biggest failure...after three months, a thirty pound weight gain, no patience with my kids or my husband, I decided to go back on the Prestiq. I felt better on it than i do off it...at least I could control my rage and i was nicer to everyone including myself....i absolutely HATE the thought of all these chemicals being in my body, but im willing to risk it...I dont understand why I have to feel like this, why cant i just be normal?? Why do I have to feel every emotion under the sun? Or feel bad because my dishes arent done, and there are toys all over the place...I get overwhelmed so easy! I cant stand it...I have not been able to think or concentrate on anything, my willpower is gone and i feel alone...Kevin and I want more babies someday and I feel like I will never be able to because Im unstable off my meds....I tried...but failed....I want to feel good again, be happy and play with my kids. Im done.

juss wanna write it down....

So my sister DeAnna and her beautiful family are moving to Oregon...David (her hubbs) got an awesome job there and will be leaving the third week in April...I AM SAD! I will miss the crap out of her...I feel so blessed to have a sister, and not to mention my nephew Landon...oh how I love the crap outta that kid...I hope we get to go see them in Oregon...(if she will have me)...I am happy for them and hope things work out for them...best wishes to my sister and her family...I love you!

a pic or two

Im addicted to taking sleeping pictures:P
We were reading scriptures and this is how miss Kamdiddy fell asleep...
And my love...he came for Christmas and rocked my world!

ITS OFFICIAL, I'M.........

Weaned off my antidepressants! Yes, no more crazy chemicals making me crazy!! It has been so long since I last posted...It took about two months to come off all the way and it was hard, but I pushed through it and now Im drug free! I have been supplementing with herbs and essential oils...so far so good...My neighbor and dear friend Kristen has helped me out with deciding what was best for me to take...right now Im taking a little pill two times a day, it has a blend of Vitamin C, niacin, folic acid, biotin, magnesium and other fun stuff...I feel pretty good so far...I am learning to deal with the natural stress and anxiety that come into my life...Im "getting over it" pretty well if I do say so myself:) Life is good! Kevin is doing very good in school and LOVES drafting...aaaahhh i so love him...he is STILL looking for a job and will keep looking until he finds one...He was doing maintenance and snow removal here at our apartments, but now we are moving into a three bedroom town house and he cant keep this job...oh well...the search is still on...We are moving into our new place March 1st...right now we are in a TINY two bedroom one bath and cant stand it! We are literally busting at the seams...I have tried getting rid of stuff and keeping things clean and organized but its a no go...Oh and we want Thomas to have his privacy when he comes to stay with us...the place we are moving into has a two car garage, two bathrooms, and a back yard! All of this for $100. more than we are paying now...Im excited and sad at the same time...we love our ward and our calling, we love our neighbors and their kids....but we wont be too far away:) Kambree is now 5! oh my goooooodness! She is excited to start school next year but her mommy is so not! Oh well, i gotta let go sometime...Im thinking about starting her in Piano sometime soon...she has shown an interest in playing when she is around one and she sounds like she is a natural already! Kathryn is STILL Mommy's girl! I heart her so much...she loves to be with her sister and its so fun to watch them play...I think maybe preschool next year will be good for her...she needs to be around more kids her age and its time for her to be more social with others....she is very focused and does not like to be bothered when doing something....Thomas is going to be 12! OH how time flies...my little baby boy is growing up! I cant wait to have him this summer...The Dressing Your Truth Energy Profiling program has really helped me understand him and myself...I appreciate him and his many talents he has...he is such a fun loving happy boy and can make anyone laugh...Ill try to post pictures soon, i have been having problems with that so we will see...ta ta for now!

More Before and After

The first one is After and the second one is before...EEEEEWWWW! I looked and felt so bad! I never wore jewelry and when I did I felt ugly in it. I never felt worthy to be around my beautiful friends. I often wondered why they even liked me! Well, now I know that Its not my looks that they were after! They like for my soft loving nature, and I think I can be a real HOOT sometimes!