quick update

Just wanted to make a quick update! Lets see what are we doing??? Kevin is going to Wyotech starting next week and I must say I'm excited for him to start school for more than one reason! He has been watching the kids while i work nights at Walmart and he is soooooo good at it. I usually make dinner for the family before I leave and he feeds them, bathes them and puts them to bed. He plays with them and I know he really enjoys his kids. This makes me very happy.

Thomas is moving to Cortez Co. to live with his dad. This was mostly Thomas' decision. He feels like he doesn't belong with us. I can see why. I'm always yelling or getting on to him for something. Either its him being mean to the girls or smarting off to me. He says the girls get more attention than he does and I can see that. He gets more negative attention because he's older and because he makes bad decisions. I tried spending more time with him and praising him when he does something good but the bad outweigh the good on that one. Ill miss him very much and right now I'm very sad but i think he needs some time with his dad. He also has a new step mom and I hope things work out as far as him respecting her and knowing she is his mother as well. I like Nikki (new mom's name) she has been very good for Thomas' dad and is the reason he is doing so well now. I hope she can influence Thomas as well.

Kambree is doing great! We are trying to potty train her and so far so good. She runs around in panties or with nothing on all day long and will tell one of us if she need's to go. She likes to be alone when she poo's she says "mom get out now pwease". She is such a character. Kathryn is her best friend. I'm so glad they are so close in age because they play great together. Now Kambree will be mean and TRY to beat up on Kathryn but Kathryn can really hold her own when it comes to her sister being a bully. Things Kambree's into now are makeup, Disney princess, dresses and shoes. The other day I walked into her room and to my surprise there were clothes piled up in front of her closet. She had taken ALL the clothes out of her closet and off the hangers just to find her "pretty dress". She ended up putting on four dresses at the same time and could barley move! I so should have taken a picture of it!

Kathryn is now almost 15 months old and she is mommy's girl! I love that little rugrat! She follows Kambree everywhere she goes and gets into just as much trouble! She has learned to climb up on to the kitchen chairs and up on to the table just like Kambree! Our table is next to our only kitchen window and about a week ago they were both up there pushing on the glass and it cracked! I feel so lucky that they didn't get hurt. Well now we fold up our chairs and put them away when we are done using them. Yes our chairs fold up:) Any who Kathryn says a few words that we are able to understand like"owie" and "momma" she will repeat what we say sometimes if she is in the mood. She hates shoes and dresses. I think she's my tomboy! Kambree is the prissy one and Kathryn is the rough and tough one!

As for me I am working part time and I like it so far. I really need that break from the kids and Kevin. Me time i guess. I think i function better when I'm on a schedule and that kind of keeps my moods up. I have been off antidepressants for over a month and feel soooooo much better than i did in St George. I have my own place and my kids have their own rooms and oh yeah i forgot to mention MY OWN KITCHEN!! I can clean and organize my stuff and when i go looking for something its almost ALWAYS where i put it last!!!! AAAAHHHH!!! big sigh of relief!! So in a nutshell things are good and hope they will stay that way! Ill keep ya all updated as much as possible!! LOVE TO YOU ALL!! RAY

crap!!

i just spent about thirty min typing a nice little paragraph about how my family is doing and the second i went to post it Kathryn came up to my key board and Deleted it all!!!! im sooooooooooooo mad!!! grrrrrrr!! i guess i ll try again later! we are doing good though! ill post pictures soon!!

countdown!!!

We offically leave for Laramie Wy on Tuesday November 10th at aprox 4am!!! Im so excited yet so nervous!! Im really not looking forward to driving in a cramped car for 9 hours with three kids!! HELP!! WISH ME LUCK IM GONNA NEED IT!!! As far as packing goes...i really dont think its ever going to end!!! Im sooooo happy I have Kevin's mom Yvonne here to help with the kids and the cleaning!! I dont know what I would do with out her help!! Laramie here we come!!!!

moving!!!

finally i get my own kitchen!!!!

Well we have finally decided to move!! finally we are breaking free of Utah! i am super excited to begin our new life in Laramie Wyoming! Kevin is starting school at Wyotech in December and i will be working part time in the evenings. people (my family) have warned me that its soooooo cold in Wy but i don't care. i am ready to have my own home and decorate it the way i like. my son will have his own room and we have a HUGE back yard!! Kevin gets his garage and we can have a dog!! we are preparing to make our big move in anywhere from two to four weeks. Kevin will come back to Utah to finish work for the year and he will be back in Laramie mid December...cant wait cant wait cant wait!!!!

Baptism

My little Thomas was finally Baptized about a two weeks ago. Kevin's brother Sterling had the pleasure of Baptising him for us. We had friends and family come watch and after we had dinner here at our house...(chicken taco's yum)! we absolutely love the sister missionary's who gave Thomas the discussions, i think he loves them too:) Watching Thomas be Baptized was one of the most awesome experiences of my life. The spirit in his eyes was overwhelming. I could just see how happy he was to finally be Baptized. I think he has been thinking about it for quite some time now. I'm so proud of my little man and I cant wait to see what else he can accomplish in his life. I love you Thomas!

DOG PEE BABY...

its been a LONG time since i have posted anything...sooooo i just thought i would post something funny and kinda gross that happened to my daughter Kathryn and i today......

It all starts out at my parents BBQ today...Kathryn was sitting in her play pen and I was sitting right next to her out on my parents back porch eating dinner...i look down and there is this yellow puddle all over the play pen mat!! Panic!! I'm like oh my gosh did Kambree dump apple juice in the play pen or did the dog decide to mark his territory??!! I couldn't decide how to pick between pee or apple juice so i smelled it and couldn't smell anything...OK that didn't work...now what am i gonna do??.....yep i stuck my finger in the puddle and tasted it!! GROSS!!! it ended up being DOG PEE!!!! i wanted to throw up! my baby was sitting in dog pee!! HE PEED ON MY BABY!! Well i rushed Kathryn to the bathroom and covered her in soap and washed her from head to toe! lets just say next time i have to decide between pee and apple juice I'm just gonna assume its pee and scrub everything anyway!!

sometimes

sometimes i get really sad and i don't know why. this time it has lasted for three weeks. my husband has noticed. i just cant be happy for some reason. i feel mad or angry for no reason. i really wish i could figure out what was wrong with me. i struggle with this so much, its really getting old. i wish i could just drink myself to sleep some days, but i have my babies to look after and they come first. how can i be a good mom to them when i feel like this. i feel mentally sick sometimes. i deal with issues from my childhood on a day to day basis and im sick of it. i need to pull out of this..........

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAMBREE!!

Saturday February 7th 2009 was Kambree's second birthday! I cant believe its already been two years since she was born. She has been such a blessing in our lives. I love her so much. I'm so proud of the little things she has accomplished in the last two years. She can walk, run, jump and she climbs on EVERYTHING!! Just this last September she had to have three staples in her head because she fell off of a chair. She is truly an adrenaline junky just like her daddy and grandpa Whipple. It really scares me to think she might actually try the things her dad tried when he was young. I'm surprised Kevin is still alive. Ok back to the subject...Kambree had an awesome birthday. We had her party at a friends house because it was raining outside and our plans for a nice park party were ruined:( Her best friends Monroe and Stella came to see her. Oh by the way I just love their moms!! Hi Esther and Adanda!! She got some super cute gifts! Of course my favorite was the sock monkey! I LOVE IT! I want one....!! We had grilled hamburgers and steak with baked chips and TONS OF CAKE!! I soooooo went off my diet that day...oops;) You gotta splurge sometime right!?? We took lots of pictures and had lots of fun watching the kids play and visiting with friends. All in all I think the party turned out great and I cant wait till next year! Thomas' party is next! YAY!!

the park!

So I absolutely love taking my kids to the park!...The weather here has been so nice the last few days. On Saturday the kids and I walked to the park close to our house. I pushed both girls in the stroller and Thomas walked next to me. I love watching Kambree play on the park toys as she learn's to go up and down the steps, she even figured out how to go down the slide all by herself! She's such a big girl now. Thomas loves to show her new things, he's such a great teacher. Kambree really loves her big bruddah. I healed Kathryn in my arms like a bag of potatoes while I took pictures of the kids playing on the toys. We packed a lunch and sat in the grass while we ate carrots and peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. We had our own little picnic. It was awesome to spend time with my kids like that. No worries, no rushing, it was nice to just sit relax and watch them enjoy playing. Aaaahhh the joys of being a mom:) I will learn to enjoy the good times and learn from the not so good times:)

Karate Promotion!!

Thomas had his first Karate Promotion on Friday! YAY! I am so excited for him. He is really working hard and I'm so glad he enjoys Karate! He promoted to a yellow belt yesterday and he is very proud of his accomplishment. Thomas will keep working hard to get to his goal of a black belt someday....Maybe we will put the girls in Karate someday if this turns out to be something positive for Thomas. YAY!! BLACK BELT BLACK BELT BLACK BELT!!

The hard things..

Sometimes I wonder if I am really doing my best at being a mother. Am I really trying my hardest? What else can I do to make things easier on my family? What will be in their best interest now and in the future? When my son Thomas goes to bed every night I feel unsuccessful as a parent because we fight like brother and sister. He has me wrapped around his finger and I'm so not consistent with him like I should be. This must change. He is so smart and has great potential to become a great man and father someday. I believe that his future starts now. Now is the time for Kevin and I to help him mold into a kind, confident and smart individual. He has been taking Karate classes two nights a week and he loves it! I wish my parents would have put me in something like Karate or maybe even dance when I was young. I think having something they can learn and use when they are older is important for their future. It kind of gives them a sense of belonging and accomplishment. Oh what I would give to have learned to play the piano or violin. Thomas will learn focus, discipline and respect in Karate. He will be promoting to a yellow belt this Friday and I as a parent am VERY excited for his achievement. Thomas will also be starting a Black Belt Leadership Program with in the next few weeks and we are all very excited for him. Its a five year program and by the time he is done he will be a second degree Black Belt. He will have an assigned reading list, learn to speak in public and learn the confidence to become a leader in his own life. This will be great for him and I cant wait to see the outcome!

Ok on to Kambree...the fact that I cant get her to bed at a decent hour really bothers me. Sometimes its midnight before she finally settles down enough to actually lay in her bed. I usually start at nine when I put Thomas down. I try to stay on a routine of dinner, bath and teeth. Kambree loves to brush her teeth. I don't feel like I am one of those moms who is consistent with her kids. I'm kind of lazy to say the least. I feel like I need to keep Kambree happy so I don't have to deal with the fits. Gosh could I be anymore selfish? What kind of mother am I!? So what am I going to do to fix this?.....Be consistent and stop being lazy! My goodness my kids need structure! Come to think of it, so do I!! Well things will get better and I will stop being LAZY!! I'm committed to being a good mom to my babies. Heavenly Father sent them to me for a reason. I will make sure they grow up in a nice family environment.

As for Kathryn, she is soooooo wonderful! She never argues with me or throws fits! AAAHH its nice having such a great baby! oh yeah babies don't argue;) hee hee... she smiles ALL THE TIME! She loves to be talked to and I really enjoy being her mother. I love my kids and will be the best mother they could ask for.

Thomas AGAIN!

I really want the best in life for my son Thomas. He has ADHD and is impossible to control without his medicine. Previously he had been taking Adderall to help with the hyper behavior and to help him concentrate. His doctor took him off Adderall about two weeks ago and put him on Zoloft just to see how he does. Lucky for me he was in Colorado with his dad for this two weeks...when I picked Thomas up yesterday his dad informed me that Thomas wore him out...obviously the Zoloft is not working. Great...now what....I sent Thomas to school today as usual and warned his teacher about his extreme hyperness. Kevin picked Thomas up from school this afternoon and was confronted by Mr. Phillips (Thomas' teacher). Mr. Phillips said Thomas will not be allowed to attend his class anymore if his behavior does not improve. He is a disruption to the class and he can not teach the other students with Thomas in there. Today was the worst day Thomas has ever had. Apparently he was sent out into the hall and during that time he was disrupting other classes and teachers! Mr. Phillips suggested putting Thomas into a special class for kids with behavioral problems. This is not what I want for my son. I want him to go to school in a normal class with a normal teacher. He has already been labeled with ADHD I really don't want him to be labeled A BAD KID. I thought about home schooling him, can I commit to that? Can I really give him the education he needs? What about socialization. He needs interaction with other kids his age. I'm lost and I really wish I could just FIX this. All I can do is support him and let him know that we (our family) love him no matter what. I know things will get better for him and he will get the education he needs.