Sometimes I wonder if I am really doing my best at being a mother. Am I really trying my hardest? What else can I do to make things easier on my family? What will be in their best interest now and in the future? When my son Thomas goes to bed every night I feel unsuccessful as a parent because we fight like brother and sister. He has me wrapped around his finger and I'm so not consistent with him like I should be. This must change. He is so smart and has great potential to become a great man and father someday. I believe that his future starts now. Now is the time for Kevin and I to help him mold into a kind, confident and smart individual. He has been taking Karate classes two nights a week and he loves it! I wish my parents would have put me in something like Karate or maybe even dance when I was young. I think having something they can learn and use when they are older is important for their future. It kind of gives them a sense of belonging and accomplishment. Oh what I would give to have learned to play the piano or violin. Thomas will learn focus, discipline and respect in Karate. He will be promoting to a yellow belt this Friday and I as a parent am VERY excited for his achievement. Thomas will also be starting a Black Belt Leadership Program with in the next few weeks and we are all very excited for him. Its a five year program and by the time he is done he will be a second degree Black Belt. He will have an assigned reading list, learn to speak in public and learn the confidence to become a leader in his own life. This will be great for him and I cant wait to see the outcome!
Ok on to Kambree...the fact that I cant get her to bed at a decent hour really bothers me. Sometimes its midnight before she finally settles down enough to actually lay in her bed. I usually start at nine when I put Thomas down. I try to stay on a routine of dinner, bath and teeth. Kambree loves to brush her teeth. I don't feel like I am one of those moms who is consistent with her kids. I'm kind of lazy to say the least. I feel like I need to keep Kambree happy so I don't have to deal with the fits. Gosh could I be anymore selfish? What kind of mother am I!? So what am I going to do to fix this?.....Be consistent and stop being lazy! My goodness my kids need structure! Come to think of it, so do I!! Well things will get better and I will stop being LAZY!! I'm committed to being a good mom to my babies. Heavenly Father sent them to me for a reason. I will make sure they grow up in a nice family environment.
As for Kathryn, she is soooooo wonderful! She never argues with me or throws fits! AAAHH its nice having such a great baby! oh yeah babies don't argue;) hee hee... she smiles ALL THE TIME! She loves to be talked to and I really enjoy being her mother. I love my kids and will be the best mother they could ask for.
