Change in me.

Some of you know that I have been suffering pretty bad depression along with anxiety for a really long time. A couple of months ago I decided it was time to really do something about it. A friend of mine here in Laramie suggested I go see her Dr. Let me tell you it has been one of the most amazing decisions I have ever made. This Dr. started me on a medication called Prestiq. I love it! I now feel like I have the motivation to get up and be a good mother to my kids. I take them to the pool and the park, even to the library! We read books everyday and I actually play with my kids. I don't feel like getting up in the morning is such a chore or that doing laundry or the dishes is going to be the end of the world! I love to cook for my family every night and we feed the Missionary's too! I love life! I have lost over 20 pounds since May and all I have done is watch my portions and I never eat after 7pm. I drink lots of water and just try to make smart food choices. I don't crave chocolate or anything for that matter. I have made a life change. I cant say I'm on a diet. I just eat better. Things with my husband are great as well. I love him and I am so happy I married him. We all have our faults and make mistakes and that's what marriage is about. We support each other (most of the time) and best of all we know how to forgive. I'm so thankful to have someone who loves me like he does.

Last but not least...WHAT DO I WANNA BE WHEN I GROW UP??! I want to do hair! I have been so passionate about hair since I was little and when my girls are in school I'm going to go to school! Since I have lived in Laramie I have cut Kevin's hair, mine, Kambee's and four other girls I know. Just in the last 24 hours I have highlited two and colored one. Tomorrow I am going to layer another. I love it! I am learning so much with the few cuts and color I have done and I now have pretty much mastered foil high lites! It takes me about an hour to do someones whole head in foil depending on how thick their hair is and how blond they want it but it is worth it. I did one tonight and it turned out great! Awesome color and IT WAS EVEN!!!! So yup that's my dream. Its not the biggest dream or one that's going to make me millions but its my dream and I will achieve it!!!

poop!

so its been a really long time since i have posted on here and even longer since i have posted pictures! well I'm having problems with my camera and trust me i have tons of pictures to put up! So today's story or complaint is about Kathryn...yup she is so so so sweet! she made me a present today! poop pie! She takes a nap every day and during her nap kambree and i sit on the couch and read or play. today wasn't any different. Two hours after Kathryn fell asleep in her crib i heard her wake up a happy singing girl..Thomas went in to her room to get her and what does he find?????? POOP!!!!!!! Yes my sweet baby has poo all over her hands and is rubbing it all over her body and toys! Well the mess is cleaned up now and I think Thomas is Traumatized..Poor kid:)

Little Girl Lost

So yesterday was July 4th and as usual we decided to celebrate with the rest of Laramie Wy. There was a party in the park so we decided to see what kind of trouble we could get into. The first attraction we went to was a car show, how predictable right. Any who Kathryn was asleep in her little umbrella stroller as I pushed her with Kambree walking right by my side. By this time we were watching Thomas play with the remote control cars. Keep in mind that Kambree is still standing right next to me and never ever runs off. Kevin asks if we want to go get free ice cream across the park and so I holler at Thomas and turn around to follow Kevin to the ice cream. I thought he had Kambree with him, but when I looked at him in front of me I noticed she was missing! Frantically I yelled at him and asked where she was. He ran back to the remote control cars and we both were in total panic! I'm thinking about what could have happened to her or who could have taken my baby, and did I remember what she was wearing or even what kind of shoes she had on that day. I felt empty and scared. I thought my biggest nightmare had come true. I lost my my little girl. While Kevin ran around looking for her I asked people in the area if they had seen my daughter. Everyone said no. FINALLY I heard Kevin yell over to me that he found her. She was hiding by a tree behind a truck! She was scared and I'm sure she was looking for us. Kevin ran over to her and picked her up. I ran over to her and when she saw me she started to cry and wanted me to hold her. Holding her right then was like I was given a second chance. A chance to be a better mother. I cried and held her tight. The time she was missing was the longest two minutes of my life. She wasn't even gone for that long but in just seconds anything can happen. One second she was right next to me and the next she was gone. I'm not really sure what happened or how she got lost, but I do know that It was my fault. I lost my daughter. She was in my care. She is my responsibility. How could I LET her go missing!? I'm grateful that we found her and that no one took her. This could have been worse.