sick n tired

I must say I am sick and tired of feeling like crap! Everyday all day I feel sad and useless, tired and worn down. I lack motivation for anything important such as, playing with my kids, cleaning my house and even spending quality time with my husband. I thought I was unhappy in St George because I lived under someone else's roof but I'm finding out that its something else. I also thought it was because I needed to get out of the house and maybe work a few hours a week. That's not it either. I don't feel happy. Well I went to the Dr. here and told her what was going on and mentioned that I am still nursing Kathryn at night and I cant seam to lose weight. I am active everyday at work for about five to six hours straight and I eat pretty well too. I don't stuff myself or binge on food like I used to. Still though I cant seam to shake it off. She mentioned that my hormones could be affecting how I feel and that my estrogen is low since I have only had ONE period since Kathryn's birth almost 16 months ago! I do have an IUD but its the para guard copper one that has no extra hormones in it so most likely its the breast feeding at night that's doing it. She sent me to have my blood drawn and now will check everything. She said she will start me on Wellbutrin antidepressant once she gets my blood work back. OH YAY another freaking antidepressant. Well she said its different than the ones I have been on and it focuses on motivation and energy. She mentioned that most people lose weight on it too:) I feel like I'm in this endless cycle of being unhappy about my appearance and that makes me lazy because I lack the motivation for anything because I just don't see the point. I probably make no sense but it feels good to get it out. Oh and my camera is missing. Cant find it anywhere!! I have wanted to post pictures and even take a few the last few weeks but I cant find the stupid thing!!! GGGRRRRRRRRRR!