I am sooooo sick and tired of taking antidepressants! I just want to be me again...I started taking Prestiq in may 2010 and it was awesome! Six months later it started to ware off....then the dr put me on a combination of Buspar and Prestiq....I took that for a month and it was seriously one of the worst months of my life...so on to drug...Wellbutrin...not even kinda cool! I feel so bad! Panic, dizziness, nausea, rapid heart rate, blurred vision, massive headache, and i have NO patience with my kids....so I called my dr yesterday CRYING and told her something was wrong...So she put me on 150 mg of Wellbutrin instead of 300...and wants to mix it with Celexa! NO WAY! No more mixing and playing with my brain! Im DONE! I want to start all over again...so Im going to suggest we wean me off everything all together...this is just ridiculous! I dont feel like Raydean anymore and I know my family is suffering because of it! WHO AM I?? I really dont have any real reason to be depressed! Its time for me to pull my head out of my HINEY and try life on my own..Kevin and I talked about this and both feel that If I can concur depression with out any crazy drugs then life for all of us will be better...I let him know that if I cant do this alone then I will go back to the antidepressants, but for now NO MORE ZOMBIE MOM! Im sick of being scared of the side effects of these drugs...seizures, suicide, WEIGHT GAIN! Come on! I just lost 35 pounds and Im not about to let it all come back! Its time to take control of MY life and MY brain! Boy it feels good to vent...what will i do to help myself??
- EXERCISE at least 5 times a week...Zumba is my favorite! and the best thing is i already exercise 3 times a week:)
- Scripture study...i know that i cant get through this alone.
- Motivation...thats a hard one...i hope i can gain that on my own somehow..maybe a combo of exercise and scriptures..
- MY FAMILY...I need to be there for them...plain and simple.
Think happy thoughts....for example..I have an awesome family and I really dont have much of a reason to be so miserable!
I cant and Will do this...Ill post my progress in the next few months....
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We'll pray for you!
You can totally do this sister. The fact that you have the desire is the best thing ever! I know what a fun happy mama there is in there- and that you can totally overcome the depression. Zombie and Raydean are oxymorons! I love you! PS awesome job on the 35 lbs!
I heart you!!!
To get out of my depression and get myself motivated, I had to get myself out of bed at a reasonable hour every morning, shower, do my make up and my hair. I swear by that! It gives you motivation to do things around your house since you're up and going and to LEAVE your house. Otherwise you mope in your pj's all day and think what's the point? Good luck!!! Congrats on losing the weight!
Your a very talented momma. Hair and photographs! Zumba and a wife! I miss you MORE than you could possibly imagine. I think about you all the time. You'll do it Raydean. Happy Be-lated Birthday :) I love you
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